Sarah Mills, London
I am a disabled comedian, writer and content creator and was diagnosed with stage 3 bowel cancer in 2018. For the first time, I’m performing my BAFTA award winning show – BADASS – at the Edinburgh Fringe Festival in August 2022 to showcase my journey with the disease and living with a stoma.
At the beginning of 2018, I felt like I was winning at life - the perfect pad, a glamorous job, and friends that made me feel like I was living in the British version of Sex and the City. I was on the hunt for a man, and instead of a handsome price - I found blood in my poo.
The next two years I swapped cocktail dresses for hospital gowns, the Lambrini for Laxatives and a stable income with debt collectors. BADASS is my story, my experiences and my love note to the NHS - but it’s more than that.
It’s about starting a conversation. My bum nearly killed me, and our bums and bowels kill people everyday. BADASS is a small part of a bigger movement - a bowel movement if you will - to help people spot the symptoms and get life-saving treatment early.
This is my experience of bowel cancer:
I was diagnosed with stage 3 bowel cancer in early 2018 and when people ask me about my symptoms, I always say I didn’t notice at first.
Around three years before I was diagnosed, I noticed there was blood in my poo so I went to my GP and they thought it was haemorrhoids, but it turns out it wasn’t.
I was later told I had a tumour which had probably been there for five years before I was officially diagnosed. My symptoms became very bad in late 2017 and early 2018.
When it became clear to me there was a problem, I called 111 one day from my office. They advised I go to A&E within the next six hours, where I was weighed, had blood taken and found to be anaemic. I was told I should return with stool samples, and I was booked in for a colonoscopy. There were a series of alarming delays and miscommunications with booking my colonoscopy and my GP was very unhelpful with this. I was eventually told I had cancer by the gastroenterologist who wasn’t permitted to give me too many details, and I had to piece together my situation from the paperwork I was sent home with.
I’ve been told there might be a history of bowel cancer within my family, but I don’t really know the full story.
I had surgery where one tumour was taken out in one go, followed by a bowel resection and a stoma being fitted. I then did six months of chemotherapy at the University College Hospital in Central London.
I’ve been given a five-year countdown to being all clear of cancer, although I have been warned that there could be a recurrence.
As I work in TV as a producer, I felt I wanted to put my skills good use whilst I was on the chemo ward. So I came up with the idea of a show where I would invite different celebrities to come and keep me company while I was receiving my treatment.
Among the visitors who popped in to see me were TV presenter Judge Rinder and comedians Dara O’Briain and Phil Wang, and lots of other different people.
People often ask me why I came up with idea for The Chemo Chat Show. What inspired me was the fact that sometimes, having chemotherapy can be a boring experience because you are sat there for a long time with a drip in your arm for roughly three hours and you can’t leave the room whilst it’s being done.
I remember one session I did for two and a half hours and if I’m honest it was super boring. It made me think that I would like to put this time to another use and that’s how The Chemo Chat Show came about.
We would always film the show in a space where other patients wouldn’t be bothered, or disturbed. It was actually quite funny when Rob Rinder (better known as Judge Rinder) came to the ward with me.
Everyone started talking to him because he’s so approachable and they kept saying, ‘oh it’s you off the telly. Oh God, you’re not here for treatment are you?’ He would just point in my direction and say, ‘no – it’s her’. They would turn around and say, ‘oh well, that’s good’, which was always left me slightly bemused!
My aim for this show is to raise awareness of bowel cancer symptoms and cancer symptoms in general, to raise awareness of stomas and also to help people going through chemo by showing them that it doesn’t need to be a doom and gloom experience.
It can be something that you can get through. Going forward, I hope that my show will reach many more people who are going through chemo.
I have been told by those who have watched, that they’ve found the show very uplifting and informative, particularly on the subjects that people don’t often think about, like dating after cancer and life beyond cancer.
I want to make sure The Chemo Chat Show reaches many more people who are living with cancer and beyond it.
But we’re leading change
Never Too Young is leading change for younger bowel cancer patients. Every year more than 2,600 younger people are diagnosed with bowel cancer in the UK. Our research has shown that younger bowel cancer patients have a very different experience of diagnosis, treatment and care.
What are we calling for?
- Improved clinical guidance and practice on bowel cancer in younger people
- Improved identification of people with genetic conditions and access to surveillance screening
- Improved information for younger people on bowel cancer symptoms